“Healing begins when we learn to love ourselves.”
Dear Future Me,
Are you happy?
I hope you are.
Right now, I feel lost,
Trapped behind these walls,
But they’re the only thing I know
To protect myself from it all.
I keep everyone out,
Because it feels safer that way.
I don’t trust love,
I don’t trust people.
How could I?
After all I’ve been through—
An absent father,
A mother who couldn’t raise me,
And abuse that broke me
Long before I knew how to fix myself.
I’m scared of letting anyone in.
I don’t know how to love
Without fearing the pain,
And I keep choosing the wrong people
Like I’m stuck in this cycle,
Every time I try to trust,
It backfires.
But I hope,
Someday, you’ve figured this out.
I hope you found love,
Not just with someone else,
But with yourself.
Because right now,
I don’t see my worth.
I’m just trying to survive.
Do the walls ever come down?
Do you ever feel free?
I’m holding onto hope
That you’ve made it to a better place.
I need to believe that all this struggle
Is leading somewhere good.
That one day,
I won’t be so scared,
And I’ll find my worth
Outside of what’s been done to me.
Please tell me that it’s true.
Love,
Me.
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